So despite the irrefutable facts of not having any money or even my having a job, we’ve decided to take a long weekend trip to the beach. Well, it’s sort of the beach, we’re staying at a Super 8 off of the interstate about 43 miles away from the beach but they have cable so there’s that. Despite my years in California, I have never been what you’d call a “beach gal”. I guess that’s because I was always at some local dirty bar with some pun-y name like “Squid Row” getting drunk with a stranger claiming to be a pirate, and doing shots of Fireball at 9am, instead of appreciating the majestic gifts of the ocean.
Don’t get me wrong, I adored getting drunk AT THE BEACH, I just never really wanted to be ON THE BEACH. I mean, c’mon, think about it. The heat ruined my martinis and have you ever walked for any length on a beach? It’s a horrific sandy trudge that will almost sober you up, and that’s uncalled for, isn’t it? Unless you get right down by the water, and no thank you. I have an arrangement with the sharks – I stay outta their ocean, they stay outta my yard. So far, so good.
I’m grateful my dead friend Ben isn’t here to regale you with all the ridiculous beach stories from our checkered past. Back in the day we trolled South Beach, Key West, the Santa Monica Pier, and Venice Beach, and I think we’ve been forcibly removed from half. Once, on mopeds. That was great fun for everyone involved, except the Key West Police Department. The more we giggled, the madder they became, which naturally led to more giggles. I miss Ben.
So it is with trepidation and some terror that I approach this trip. I am sober, sure. But there are also teenagers that will be there and I will have to be an adult, I imagine, and y’all know I hate that shit. Speaking of adulting, I mentioned up there that I am still job hunting and can I just tell you guys that I have been up for consideration OF AN ACTUAL JOB, but it’s been somewhat challenging and I’m not really sure why. I have had THREE interviews in the last THREE weeks. I have met with The Dude that Runs the Show. It is a receptionist position and I know that receptionists have it hard everywhere, but come on, I’m not expected to split any atoms sitting there, right?! Anyway, they were said to be weighing out their options when yesterday (again, after three weeks) they contacted my Temp Agency and asked for references.
REFERENCES. For a receptionist position in a run-down building where nothing actually seems alive except maybe the mold around the bottom of the ancient wood paneling. Really?Remember back in the day when there were “party lines” and shit like that? I wish they still had those but I’m pretty sure you can still get a porn number, can’t you? Porn number? I don’t even know what they’re called. You know, where you call a number and someone talks dirty to you?Please tell me those are still out there because I am putting Ron Jeremy as my top reference and please, by all means, won’t you call him!? And what’s MORE . . . I’m a godforsaken TEMP, you ASS CLOWNS. I’m already VETTED by that exact process, you know, IN ORDER TO SAVE YOU TIME.
I just can’t imagine why I don’t have a job.
I’m hoping that I can survive this trip to the beach with two teenage girls and my husband, WITH MY SOBRIETY INTACT, and without driving for seven hours like Meryl Streep in The Bridges of Madison County where she clutched onto that door handle willing herself to jump out in the pouring rain at the red stoplight. She chose not to, for love of course, but I’m thinking that a rough landing at 75 mph in a muddy ditch sounds like a good trade-off at this point.
THOSE BEACH PHOTOS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The fact that someone documented those moments of gold…mad props.
Go do this thing, because I’m hanging on till next week to get the report, which will be a hell of a lot easier to write from the “I’m still sober” perspective… Easy in this case equals not popping up for a white chip on Monday. Now that going back after relapse stuff, that’s the hard road…all those goddamned voices in your head, nah, leave them shut up while you just breathe through whatever spouse and teenage dramas stage up. One. Sober. Breath. At. A. Time.